I Asked For This To Be In Red
I drew a picture of me and my daughter but I know it cannot be included but I asked for this to be in red, to alert people to the problem of domestic violence.
People who don’t know someone dealing with domestic violence……….don’t know what it is like.
I have to get out with my daughter safely. My abuser says he always knows what I am doing and where I am.
Shelters are overcrowded, and have no room for us now. ( I had a friend check for me---when I was able to get a message to her)
I had a miscarriage two weeks ago due to the abuse and beatings I suffered by my abuser husband. He is not sorry. He said it was my fault. My daughter, who is five, saw it all, and was screaming. He threatened to punish her and threw her across the room because she was screaming. We told the hospital that I fell down the stairs because he went with me and the hospital did not question anything. Just sent us on our way when they were done. My family won’t help, they blame me. They think I must have made him mad.
As I write this, my heart is still beating out of my chest as if it happened yesterday. I am still shaking and still scared to death. He blames me. He always blames me. I don’t know what to do, but I know I need to get out with my daughter while we are still alive. I wish I could bring my other baby back, but I can’t. Why aren’t there more resources, for those like me and my daughter. It is as if no one wants to admit it happens; the beatings, the abuse-- the loss. I feel so sad today because of my loss, but have to have hope for my daughter and myself. Hoping I can go to my church tomorrow to see if they can help me and my daughter get away safely……….to another state and a new life.
I have heard that for women, Will county courts stink. They don’t care.
Please help victims and survivors of domestic violence like me and my daughter escape and live again. Live a good and safe life.